so i finally posted some pictures - these were taken in our bedroom by my mom, the sunshine felt scrumptious and lended itself to some great light! luke has changed so much since we brought him home, and emma has grown 10 pounds, i swear!

i have been feeling a bit emotional the past few days. i cant seem to pull myself up quick enough before the tears start... the overwhelming feelings of 'i cant do this' has gotten the better of me. i just keep reminding myself that this path has been walked down by many mothers before me, this is NOT un-walked territory. then at other times, the tears start from out of nowhere, there is nothing im conscience of that makes me feel that way, i just feel down. maybe i just need more sleep...

but on the contrary, there are glimmers of joy and absolute aw in the life i have been given. i see emma and her tenderness towards her baby brother, the hugs, kisses, and hand holding she pours out on him. i truly believe there is no other baby that could be given more love from a big sister! she even loves on me, patting my back, hugging me and telling me 'oh mom,' she has the biggest heart for a 22mth old!

well in signing off, i read a really neat quote in my email box this morning:

Everybody knows that a good mother gives her children a feeling of trust and stability. She is their earth. She is the one they can count on for the things that matter most of all. She is their food and their bed and the extra blanket when it grows cold in the night; she is their warmth and their health and their shelter; she is the one they want to be near when they cry. She is the only person in the whole world in a whole lifetime who can be these things to her children. There is no substitute for her. Somehow even her clothes feel different to her children's hands from anybody else's clothes. Only to touch her skirt or her sleeve makes a troubled child feel better.-Katharine Butler Hathaway